Saturday, March 22, 2008
reuni
akhirnya ngumpul lagi ma nia-melan di Sensi, tepatnya di Takemori (of course karena ada sake-nya... lah!) dalam rangka buku gw dah terbit (meski si penerbit dg kurang sopannya ga ngasih tau.. dan banyak bikin kasus!).
yah, pokoknya puas deh. nongkrong dari jam 7 ampe jam 10 di situ doang. Minum sake (minta satu pot) doang yg ternyata seorang bisa 6 teguk (rekor terbanyak nenggak sake tuh..), kampai melulu dengan suara kenceng.. pake ketemu artis yang belahan bajunya super bgt ampe belahan toketnya panjang (dan dg ga sopannya merokok.. di area bebas rokok.. lah, tadi mbaknya bilang itu area bebas rokok. mentang2 artis jadi boleh gitu, ngerokok, mbak? pantes aja penerbit gw jg kurang ajar sama gw.. dikiranya gw bego bgt apa.. kalo sama orang bule, gw taruhan deh, kalo perlu disembah2..!)
intinya tadi bergembira ria. makan sampe tepar. cerita kehidupan yang ga pernah kita bagi selama setahun.. Si neng udah jadi biker (sepedah).. naik berat badannya tapi rada kekar ya neng? :P si melan semangkeenn deh.. (entah semangken apa gw jg ga ngerti)... semangken ajaib kali ya mel... dg kasus2 pria yg lbh ajaib lg.. gw cuma nyeritain kejadian2 ajaib di TK dan SD..
sialnya waktu gw pulang, gw ketemu dg si anu yg jadi musuh dlm slemut gw.. padahal gw dah ketakutan ketemu parents (dan ketakutan kalo gw ketemu mereka dlm keadaan mabok.. ternyata minum 6 teguk belom mempan ya... syukurlaaaaahhhh). kata si melan mah keberuntungan.. kali2 gw jd suka ma dia.. HALAAAHHH tengkyu bye-bye deh...
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Kanashimi no heart
chigau no michi ka..
chigau no sei ka..
jibun ni wakaranai..
kono kokoro wa kanashi no scream o suru
takusan question o suru.. kotae wa arimasen..
kono hi wa.. ano hole ga aru..
motto, motto kanashii ga aru..
motto, motto... sabishii..
honto ni.. chigau no michi ka..
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Do I walk in the wrong path..? Do I choose the wrong path..?
Music Demo has done..
Music demo has completely done with good result. It has melted the wall between my feeling to P. It was awkward that he said, "Saya terharu.." and even hugging me.
we're ready for 2nd demo now.. since next week there's no school. preparation time is only 2 weeks. I hope everyone puts bigger effort..
Gravity
music/arrangement: Kanno Yoko
singer: Sakamoto Maaya
Ending Theme of Wolf's Rain
Been a long road to follow,
Been there and gone tomorrow,
Without saying goodbye to yesterday
Are the memories I hold still valid?
Or have the tears deluded them?
Maybe this time tomorrow,
The rain will cease to follow,
And the mist will fade into one more today
Something somewhere out there keeps calling
Am I going home?
Will I hear someone
Singing solace to the silent moon?
Zero gravity
What's it like? (Am I alone?)
Is somebody there beyond these heavy aching feet?
Still the road keeps on telling me to go on...
Something is pulling me
I feel the gravity of it all
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I lost my gravity... :(
Friday, January 18, 2008
Farewell, ME!
hari terakhir di ICA..
sumpah gw sentimentil abis. dari pagi perasaan gw dah diaduk2. dengerin J-rocks udah berkaca-kaca. terus untuk pertama (dan terakhir kalinya) ikutan Circle Time. Pake di-farewell-in segala. Nyanyi ngasal aja Sukiyaki sama Satu Jam Saja. Kacrut deh pokoknya.
Terus beneran sedihnya pas orang-orang pada meluk gw. duh, bener2 deh.. mulai tumpah-tumpah.
gini ceritanya,...
sebenarnya gw bukan dipecat. cuma ditransfer doang dr ICA ke JIPS. tadinya, gw tuh cuma part-time ngajar komputer doang dan tetep stay di ICA. Terus selasa kemaren, SY mendadak ngomong kalo gw handle art-and-craft juga. gw bengong dong. kan cuma satu. tapi dia insist kalo gw pegang 2 sambil bilang kalo gw fully ditransfer ke jips. jam 2.30an tuh kejadiannya.. Inget banget gw, mr. Jem aja baru bilang kalo dia lega dah ngelarin jadwal karena doi sampe ga tidur jam 12 malem (yg buat gw sih.. standar itu mah.. standarnya internet-freak heheheh)
ya udah, hari rabu, gw bikin 'shock therapy' buat orang-orang.. ngumumin kalo gw ninggalin ICA. wah, reaksinya macem2. bener2 bengong gitu. ms. sally bilang jantungnya stop 1-3 detik,.. si ayu ma rita (korban pertama) udah pucat gitu (soalnya dikirain gw mau bilang kalo ga boleh nginep2 lagi.. hahahaha). dina.. mugi.. sante, ms. helyn, ms. roch, ms. rosadah (yg lagi jalan langsung mendadak berhenti, terus melototin gw), ms. lorraine,.. semua2 yg tau deh..
Cuma ngasih pengumuman (personal... datengin satu2.. tapi selebihnya berita beredar dengan sendirinya, of course...) aja gw dah berkaca-kaca. ga siap mental sih..
just feel so much like a family.. makanya hati gw masih ga siap mental kali ya... bener sih kata mbak Ai.. lagi panas2nya, lagi seru-serunya, ibarat bayi lagi lucu2nya, terus tiba2 harus misah.. DOH, kenapa gw pengen nangis lageeeee! (>.<) (T_T)
aduh.. kalo diinget2 kesintingan gw di sini pas halloween.. pas UN Day.. pas internal party... ya ampun... itu masa2 paling gila, lucu, ancur2an banget pokoknya..
nobody can predict the future. Padahal, yang berencana mau keluar tuh Dina.. gw dah bolak-balik ngomong kalo gw bakal 'sendirian' kalo ngatur2 pesta di next time.. eh, kalo Tuhan dah punya rencana sendiri, apapun yang lo predict, yang udah lo antisipasi, ga akan berarti lagi. siapa nyangka, bukan Dina yang duluan leaving tapi malah gw..
btw ntar siang mau makan bareng ma rully, dina, ayu, selvi. sore, mbak Ai udah bilang kalo dia mau photo2. I promise them that I will always come on friday. gw rasa gw bisa bikin kesepakatan ma SY :D
There's nothing I regret here. Rather than bad memories, I have fulfill my heart with such beautiful memories. For whatever reason, I love this place and the people.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Tane wo Maku Hibi
sung by Atari Kousuke
(from Bleach ending theme 13)
itsumo no machi no, itsumo no fuukei ni
MONOKURO no kaze ga, fuite iru
kasuka ni kaoru, tamerai no KAKERA ni
kokoro no doko ka, yurete iru
dakedo itsu demo jibun no shinjite
kawaru jidai no naka, kawarazu ni iretara
tane wo maku hibi ga atte, mizu wo yaru hibi ga atte
itsuka mierunda, kibou to iu me ga
tsumazuita hibi ga atte, mae wo maku hibi ga atte
itsu ka mierunda, michinaru tsubomi ga
ima wa tada, me no mae no michi
yukkuri to susunde yuku
kinou to kawaranu kyou datta to shite mo
kitto nani ka ga, kawatte iru
ashita ni tsunagaru, subete no imi wo
sukoshi zutsu de ii, kono mune ni kizande
tane wo maku hibi ga atte, mizu wo yaru hibi ga atte
itsuka mierunda, bokura no mirai ga
harewataru hibi ga atte, ame ga furu hibi ga atte
itsuka mierunda, nijiiro no mirai ga
ima wa tada, me no mae no michi
yukkuri to susunde yuku
tooku, tooku, tsudzuite yuku
bokura no ikiru michi
kasanari atte, tsunagari atte
itsu ka wa ichimen ni, egao no hana ga saku
tane wo maku hibi ga atte, mizu wo yaru hibi ga atte
itsuka mierunda, bokura no mirai ga
tachidomaru hibi ga atte, kotae sagasu hi ga atte
itsuka waraunda, yasashiku waraunda
ima wa tada, me no mae no michi
bokura wa susunde yuku
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(translation)
The same scenery of the same street
The monochrome wind is blowing
Faintly fragrant, shards of hesitance
Is swaying somewhere in my heart
But I will always believe in myself
In the changing times, if I can remain unchanged
There are days to sow the seeds, there are days to give them water
Someday I’ll see it, the seeds called hope
There are days you stumble, there are days to move forward
Someday I’ll see it, the flower buds that will become a road
Someday I’ll see it, the road in front of my eyes
Slowly continues
Even if yesterday was the same as today
Something must have changed
To be connected to tomorrow, the meaning of everything
Is slowly being etched into this chest
There are days to sow the seeds, there are days to give them water
Someday I’ll see it, our future
There are fine days, there are days it rains
Someday I’ll see it, the rainbow-coloured future
It’s just now, the road in front of my eyes
Slowly continues
Far away, far away, continuing
Our life’s road
There’s something to lie on, there’s something that connected
Someday it’ll bloom everywhere, the flower of a smiling face
There are days to sow the seeds, there are days to give them water
Someday I’ll see it, our future
There are days to stop, there are days to look for answers
Someday I’ll smile, smile gently
It’s just now, the road in front of my eyes
Slowly continues
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Kataritsugu Koto
sung by Hajime Chitose
(Ending theme Blood+, season 1)
Namida ikutsu koborete
Shingetsu no yoru hitotsu umi ga umareta
Tooku tsumuida kotoba
Kataribetachi no monogatari no naka ni
Mukashi dare ka ga koko de
Hari sake sou na mune wo sotto hiraita
Uta ni kanadete zutto
Donna basho ni mo tazusaete yukeru yo
Kesa naide anata no naka no
Tomoshibi wa tsuranari itsushika
Kagayaku kara
Kataritsugu koto ya tsutaete yuku koto
Jidai no uneri wo watatte yuku fune
Kaze hikaru kyou no hi no sora wo
Uke tsuide sore wo asu ni te watashite
Yubi ni hitai ni kami ni
Anata no mukou kaima mieru omokage
Moshimo toki no nagare wo
Saka noboretara sono hito ni deaeru
Kono sekai umarete soshite
Ataerareta ara yuru namae ni
Negai ga aru
Itoshii egao ni kokoro ugokashite
Arashi ni yurai de tachidomaru toki mo
Mamoritai subete wo sasagete mo
Omoi wa chikara ni sugata wo kaeru kara
Katari tsuide tsutaete yuku koto
Jidai no uneri wo watatte yuku fune
Kaze hikaru kyou no hi no sora wo
Uke tsuide sore wo asu ni te watashite
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(translation)
Many tears I shed,
In the night of the new moon, another sea is created
Far in the distance, the words
Of this story are spinning around
A long time ago, someone stood here
Slowly opening his heart, as though it may split
Always singing his song
Taking it along wherever she went
Without faltering, the undying flame in you
Will bring us together
As it shines in your heart
The things I pass down and explain to you
The boat that sails across the waves of ages
The wind shines, even the sky today
I pass it to you along with the future
In your finger, forehead and your hair,
Beyond you, I can see a glimpse of a face
If somehow, I could turn back the stream of time,
I could meet that person
We’re born into this world and then
In each of the names that are given to us,
There's a wish
Your beautiful smile moves my heart
When I’m trapped within a storm
I want to protect you, even give up everything to you
Because those thoughts turn into strength for me
The things I'm passing down and explaining to you
The boat that sails across the waves of ages
The wind shines, even the sky today
I pass it to you along with the future
Saturday, December 22, 2007
30
pada akhirnya, angka angker itu terjadi juga. setelah berminggu berbulan gw dihantui pertanyaan "what can i do today?" pada akhirnya gw menyadari betapa cepatnya waktu bergerak di hari2 menjelang 30.
sekurang-kurangnya, beberapa target gw tercapai:
- cosplay sinting di sekolah
- jadi event organizer (di sekolah, acara internal cosplay party yg sukses berat)
- punya DVD RW (yg bikin keuangan gw nyaris bangkrut)
- mesen Saiyuki Reload di Kinokuniya (gara2 versi fan-translation ga komplit)
- beli Peacemaker Kurogane perlahan-lahan
- belajar maen biola (bahkan dapet biola gratis dr bos gw..) yang ternyata gratisan rame2 ma bos dan guru
- jadi teacher (walau masih teacher-teacheran.. hehehe)
- the book is in progress (semoga bener2 terbit)
beberapa hal mengharukan yang terjadi:
- dapet figure doll dr pras (Kakashi)
- dapet penghargaan (bareng Dina) atas kerja keras dan dedikasi kita nyiapin party cosplay
- bisa ngasih sesuatu utk Sante yg abis kecelakaan
- masih dapet hadiah natal dr orang2 padahal kan gw ga natalan... (dan mereka tau)
- orang2 pada hepi pas cosplay party.
- dini and her team made great effort for the party
- jadi rocker semalam pas cosplay party (dan bikin orang2 histeris hahahahah)
gw bersyukur bisa menyelesaikan apa-apa yang gw inginkan. Di usia nyaris 30 kemaren, jalan hidup gw bener2 ajaib. God really has his own way to cheer up my life. I hope I can do more - good things for the universe - and celebrate it...
Friday, November 16, 2007
Menilai dan Bersyukur
tiba2 saja hari ini gw berpikir tentang hal remeh-temeh. mungkin karena dipicu sebuah kejadian kecil yg ga penting di kantor.
sesuai jadwal, hari ini adalah hari exchange gift. karena gw adalah yg berurusan dg penerimaan hadiah sekaligus pengambilannya, jelas gw tau dong siapa yg dpt hadiah dr gw. soalnya gini, kita tuh tukeran kado ga pake nama asli tapi nama kartun bule (duh, coba kartun anime.. semangat deh..). nah, yg mengarsip nama tuh gw. jadi, ketika si Anu mengambil hadiah yg notabene dr gue, jelas dong gw pengen tau reaksi dia apa. oh, soalnya temanya tuh "something soft" dan seharga 5000 perak. rada pusing jg sih mikirnya, apalagi bokek gini dan males keluar rmh :P
ketika si Anu membuka hadiah gw (ga nyadar kalo itu dr gue, pastinya!), reaksinya ternyata kecewa. bahkan ketika ada peserta selanjutnya yg masuk, dia menunjukkan barang itu dg kecewa,.. kalimatnya kira2, "cuma beginian." Hehe, padahal kalo dia tau tu barang gw bawa dari Cina sbg oleh2, kali2 dia lebih appreciate ya? XD
mungkin emang bener kalo kita menilai sesuatu ga bisa dari besar kecilnya. Kadang2 suatu benda bisa menyimpan "misteri" ya sperti tadi, kalo aja dia tau itu gw beli di luar negeri, sambutannya mungkin berbeda.
Kedua, gara2 melihat kejadian itu, gw jadi bersyukur bahwa gw tetap bersyukur (tertawa) ketika gw melihat hadiah gw XD
Gw bersyukur bahwa gw masih disebut "sabar" sama bos gw setelah "perang semesta" di senin lalu (hahaha, sebenarnya gw sih ga berantem, tp ini akibat suasana yg diciptakan oleh bos gw yg waktu itu emosinya lg naik2 ke puncak gunung, lama2 gw kebawa jengah dong...).
oh btw, sepertinya orang2 di kantor pada bahagia gw punya asisten :D
dan gw bersyukur bahwa bos gw segera mempekerjakan seorang tenaga magang buat gw! :D
